wellll, everthings basically back to the way it use to be with me & dylan, we spend 24/7 together. he calls me every chance he gets, he even calls to tell me where hes goin? and wen hell be home lmao. we did the dirty AGAIN. but were still jus friends. i dont get it. but he finally came clean and told me hes only been with 3 ppl. me being one of the 3 =) so imma see where it goes. he still hasnt mentiond the letter. & i know hes read it. so i know he knows im madly in love with him. things can only get better from here. hopefully

welll so he hasnt worked up the nerve to talk to me about the letter and im too scared to mention it wtf is my problem. i wish he wudnt of came back in my life ughhhhhhhh. cuz now i wanna spend every min with him, there for ditching everybody. nad i dnt really talk to danny much cuz altho he swear to me he dont love his gf and he realllly likes me hes still with her. and im not dwn for that but im sure if i wanted to be with him hed leave her its jus i want to be with dyaln . this sucks. fml

wellll this is been a random month. me and hollly are back to the old us. =) which im glad. & dylans back in my life ugh go figure. & he got the letter , he told holly he wud call me tomorrow to talk about it so it all comes out tomorrow ..ill be sure to let you know if i hate my life or NOT, which i hope its wat i wanna hear but im gearin myselffor the bad new. =/ but anyways well find out. i got my monroe periced everyone thinks its cute, even dylan =) tehe . gawd i missed him.

why the fuck am i so weak. i cant believe id still fuckin do anything for dylan. why is he doin this. you all of a sudden gonna start callin me again. i jus need to know if u wanna be with me or not , cuz if not then im not gonna go outta my way for you. but it s funny wen u finally give up and they come cr

i love when tori runs her fuckin mouth to rachel and says i fucked her boyfriend, exspecially wen that shit happend like last year. and then im gonna fuckin call you and your fuckin friend rachel calls me a dumbass, and says she can kick my ass but wen i fuckin pull up at andrew heights where yall are supose ta be yall like disappear and say lets drop it lets drop it , you fuckin know id kick your fukin ass dumb cunt y talk shit, your guna talk shit on myspace and on the phone after i fuckin tryd to meet your stupid ass, honey i will find you im not gonna look  hard but this fuckin wrld isnt as big as u think, karmas a bitch and shit talkers get delt with.

welp never thought id say this, but fuck dylan. i hope his ass ends up in jail. hes a fuckin dumbass.
-out for the third time in a row. im tired ass hell runnin on like 3hrs of sleep in 2 dayss but fuck it. ima live it up, got guys chasin me lifes gud right now i dont needdd nothin, i got it alllllllllllll hookahhhh.

damn. this sucks

this morning i thought  dylan was callin me so i hurried & answered it but it was jus him mom lookin for him, LIKE I TALK TO HIM EVER? gawd i wish he'd jus tell me how the fuck he feels. if you dont like me telllll me so i can move on and be with somebody, either way your breakin my heart

its been a day, still nothinggg...

welllll, i gave dylan the letter about everything, i give it a few days if he hasnt said anything to me about it, then fuck him.. & i willlllllllll be doneeeee for sure.